it only takes a moment to knot ourselves together like the ends of a rope, longing to be knotted together, but even lovers have still lives, whole months where they hang together like moths.

11.23.2007

you don't listen to my stories anymore

and in the meantime i have nothing to say.

i'll always be by your side, even when you're down and out. i'll make your bed, i'll cook you food. i'd do these kinds of things, i'll be the best girl you'd ever meet. fill these spaces up with days. in my room. i can't sleep, i can't speak. all these years are locked in my drawer. you pulled me through time. it was always you.

i keep my distance but you still catch my eye, a face on a lover with a fire in his heart. all the things i've tried to say were never easy to explain, they were always meant for you. and all the pieces that remain will build a place for us to stay. they were always meant for you. its impossible to tell how important someone is, and what you might have missed out on, and how you might have changed it all. i think that if we were all we had, thats more than most people ever have. you know that something inside of you still plays a part in what i do. don't stop now that we're almost there. if you weren't real i would make you up. you're special, you're a rocket through me, honey bee.

and i miss you, even here taking it all in. the sand carries the moon on its shoulders, is it possible to put this night to tune and move it to you? don't cry i'll bring this home to you, if i can make this night light enough to move. and if you're gonna wake up, you might as well wake up with me. and if you're going downtown, i might as well be on your way. i need you in the world.

if you want to feel, then we better start touching. if you want water, then we better start crying. it you want tears, then we better start dying. waking up without you is like drinking from an empty glass. it only takes a moment to knot ourselves together, like the ends of a rope, longing to be knotted together. but even lovers have still lives, whole months where they hang together like moths. so from now on love, we will always be about to touch, always about to destroy each other.

your carpet is blue so that it matches your shoes, its like the way drains smoke in new york and its in everything you do. i've made up memories about you. its the way you talk in twos, it's like playing with your food. it's in everything you do. i miss you like the deserts miss the rain. take it slow, take it easy on me. it's the dirtiest clean i know.
you feel alright to me.
but we need hints before we get tired. cast some light, it will be alright. for now.

and while i'm waiting for something to say i'll love no one and let no one love me.

what can i do now that i cannot find the words i need, now that your name is not enough.

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you're my disco.